There are so many things going on, swirling around me, and I feel like I'm just being pulled along in the current. I can't process it all fast enough. My brain has reached that frustrating point of Can't Deal, Shutting Down. And the more I try to focus and push myself along into On-Top-Of-It Efficiency, or at least Modicum Of Productivity (though at this point I'd settle for Just Hanging On), the more sluggish my mind seems to become.

I understand why people abuse Ritalin.