Yesterday was a much, much better day - the most in control I've felt in weeks.
I saw my doctor earlier this week, and I am on medication - something to take the edge off every day, and something to help when I feel an attack coming on, and it's helping a LOT, but I have very little appetite. It's worth it to feel capable again, like I can get out of bed, like my life is worth getting out of bed for. I know this will be something I struggle with for a while, but I have the support of my family, friends, and awesome blog peeps. I sincerely appreciate the kind words and thoughts - thanks.

In the meantime, I have a LOT of work to get done before I can start my Christmas vacation - so no more posts from me until next week.